Care Free Black Girl

In the wistful months of summer, where the days were providing a fierce 30 degree heat, I had reluctantly left my air conditioned office space for the baking outdoors for my lunch break. Deciding to endure the small trek from work to the local Morrisons down the road , I felt a surprising freedom within me. The back road I had taken was vacant and quiet except for a few builders deep into their construction work . In my wisely chosen summer dress with a rucksack on my arm and the sun slightly unbearably on my face and back, I had no qualms and worries. No anxious thoughts and no insecurities. A moment brief yet well and truly needed with the amount of disheartening headlines on the news, on top of university worries about accommodation, on top of deep issues I had with myself personally which come out now and then in vulnerable moments. Layers upon layers disappeared in those moments of melodious walking, simply putting one foot in front of the other, rhythmic and mesmerising.

These moments of peace, exempt from the world and it's issues is a form of self care we should all indulge in. A time similar to a moment of meditation or prayer but with more of the air of representing an inner freedom . I believe these moments come at random intervals sometimes days, weeks even months at a time, where you just catch yourself smiling for no apparent reason, in a quiet place or even a public area, your brain managing to disqualify all distractions in your surroundings. Of course this is all theories and my personal opinion, totally unsupported by any psychological reference or evidence. But something on that scorching yet satisfying day, in between the morning of a long inadequate shift and the few hours of long awaited home time, that moment stirred my heart into writing about those simple 5 minutes of unpolluted happiness. I pray that these moments become more frequently felt by others and myself, especially at times where the world seems dark and uncertain like these recent months.

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